I struggle every day, but particularly during “Back to School” time. I am fortunate enough to be able to continue my passion for teaching while working from home. Also at home with me is my toddler. Trying to find the balance between being a good teacher and a good mama has my anxiety levels on red alert.
The Teacher Struggle
I have been a teacher for far longer than I have been a mama. This year is my thirteenth year in the teaching profession. I love my job. The pay is not exactly spectacular, but the rewards cannot be measured. The feeling you have when you watch that light bulb pop on over a child’s head is like no other.
I love knowing that I am making a difference. When I think back upon all of my years teaching, I hope that I can say that I have affected the lives of literally hundreds of kids in a positive way. Maybe someday a handful will come back and tell me my long hours were worth every second. I have a feeling they were and I have no regrets about being a dedicated teacher. The thing is, I do not want to feel like I am any less dedicated now that I am a mom.
Now, I understand the concerns of parents in an entirely different way. There was a time that I thought I got it, but I really did not have a clue. Those crazy helicopter parents? Well, I am one of them now. Go ahead and hand me my wings. I understand what it means now when a parent hands over their precious child to me five days a week.
Spiderman says, “With great power comes great responsiblity.” He was talking to teachers.
I take my duties as a teacher very seriously. It is my responsibility to ensure that every child within my classroom receives quality instruction and a great educational experience. I do not take this responsibility lightly. I spend hours pouring over the standards and planning my lessons. Then, I analyze the student data and return to the fold, hoping that the second…or third attempt will mean they all “get it”.